But things are changing.
I've become a woman who is more apprehensive about travelling, especially alone, which is silly because I like to think that I am a strong independent woman who is perfectly capable of taking on the world. I'd always imagined that I'd take hop on a flight with a little bit of money and see where the world takes me. But what if something happens? I get lost? Attacked? Find myself in a situation beyond my control?
It's just sad, because at 21, I shouldn't have to worry about whether if I backpack through a rainforest, I'm going to make it back alive. I shouldn't have to worry about cultural clashes that I could get stuck in between. I shouldn't have to worry whether I am at risk because I am a young white woman.I should have the chance to see every far flung corner of the world and its people and take those memories with me forever.
But I sense it will never change and has the potential to get worse. Which makes me wonder whether the art of the gap year will have to change entirely? or will it just be certain 'high risk' countries that people avoid?
I will see the world in my lifetime. I just won't do it alone.